# I'M STILL PREYING ON A BUTCHER'S VEIN!      JAX or sylvie, at your service!  it/its + more;  adult (2005).  transmasc/genderqueer butch lesbian ⚢, artist, writer, roleplayer, dreamer, tattoo enthusiast currently lacking any tattoos, and resident science guy.   current cat + past & future rabbit parent.   ( TASTING 血淋淋的愛   /   I'LL DEVOUR ALL OF YOU IN TIME! )   audhd.  miku enthusiast,  horror fanatic,  goth-in-training,  and full-time neuroscience student trapped in the midwest.  too many favorite colors to fit them all in one site, hence the monochrome.  use buttons to navigate.  homepage art via @iotaectoplasm.

hello, i'm JAX!    i'm an artist  (digital mainly, but i love oil pastel & graphite),  writer, roleplayer, psychological horror fanatic, and worldbuilding + rarepair enthusiast from the midwest usa (central time).   full-time psychology major with a neuroscience concentration and a focus on biological chemistry.  aspiring neuro phd student & neurodevelopmental psychiatrist!  ( A PERFECT STRIKE TO FIX THE HORROR ON YOUR FACE! )  when i'm not in the organic lab accidentally spilling the chloroform (true story!), you can find me being cursed by my gacha game fixation,   negotiating with terrorists (procreate, photopea), decorating discord servers, rock climbing,  brainstorming my novel project, and becoming a walking billboard for thrifted blouses, animated films, and reverse: 1999.   i only bite sometimes.

   ✦    BEFORE YOU INTERACT        
(ONE.)       i'm a full-time student and part-time employedpilled jobcel and crisis line volunteer. responses may be slow and activity may be sporadic. feel free to bump me if there's something i haven't seen!     
(TWO)       i'm formally diagnosed with autism + adhd, as well as dissociative identity disorder (among a few other less important things). i don't talk about the latter much as i hate the way the internet has bastardized it over the past few years, but it's something that BODYSLAMS ME ON THE REGULAR affects my life and the way i interact with the world and other people nonetheless. please don't assume things about me and my mental health just based on things you've seen online—i'm happy to answer questions if you're normal about it. i may miss cues, so please tell me if something i've done is bothering you—i'd be more than happy to talk it out.     
(THREE)       i ping-pong between my active interests like a lab rat on cocaine, but i'm always happy to talk shop about any of them, all the time. this is a threat.      
(FOUR)       generally, i'll let you know if a topic makes me uncomfortable, but i'd prefer to not be in conversations about drugs or alcohol, even socially.      
(FIVE)       you will get a dead dad joke if the situation calls for it.

   ✦    GET OUT        bigots (including zionists, terfs, and anyone who considers themselves right-wing),  creeps,  or weirdos.   rumor spreaders and drama farmers.   doesn't consume media through a critical lens.   doesn't look at oppression intersectionally.      ai "artists" or "writers".   can't communicate maturely about concerns.      chooses not to be responsible for their triggers or mental health issues.   fetishizes rape, incest, pedophilia, and/or any type of abuse.   harbors a dislike for any of my close friends.   for personal comfort, please be 18+ :)

   ✦    LOVEMAIL!      my cat luna and all my friends ♡

   ✦    OVERVIEW        
(ACADEMIC)       biochemistry,  neurobiology, psychology
(FASHION)       decora, goth, lolita, maximalism, new wave, ouji
(MEDIA)       animated films, gacha games, rpgmakers, speculative fiction
(STUFF I LOVE LEARNING ABOUT)        forensics, literature, space, tornadoes
(OTHER MISCELLANEOUS)       creating art (2D), ball-jointed dolls, doll customization & OOAKs, figure collecting, graphic design, hatsune miku, psychological horror, rarepairs, roleplaying, writing

   ✦    MUSIC        
(GENRES)       dark cabaret, experimental, indie rock, southern gothic, visual kei, vocaloid
(ARTISTS)       amigo the devil, bear ghost, the blake robinson synthetic orchestra,  the bridge city sinners, coyote kid, the crane wives, emerson woolf and the wishbones, ethan gander, jason webley, jhariah, luluyam, luvcat, mad tsai, malice mizer, mitski, thoushaltnot, voltaire, waitress
(VOCALOID + VSYNTH PRODUCERS:  JP)        azari, guchiry, hiiragikirai, kikuo, ladymonsters
(VOCALOID + VSYNTH PRODUCERS:  EN)        ghost and pals, riproducer, sawtowne, vane lily, vocalokat

   ✦    GAMES        
(GACHAS)       honkai: star rail,  reverse: 1999,  wuthering waves     
(RPGMAKERS)       end roll,  hello charlotte i + ii,  ib,  off,  omori  (omocat go to hell),  re:curse,  wadanohara and the great blue sea  (okegom also go to hell),  your turn to die
(MISCELLANEOUS:   STORY-BASED)       buckshot roulette,  cookie run (kingdom & ovenbreak),  deltarune,  doki doki literature club,  hades,  hollow knight,  inscryption,  undertale
(MISCELLANEOUS:   OTHER)       balatro,  minecraft,  roblox
(WANT TO PLAY)       dead plate,  disco elysium,  elevator hitch,  hello charlotte iii,  in stars and time,  jackpot crash course,  married in red,  oneshot,  pocket mirror,  witch's heart